Philosophy- dying
| Janie |
 Oct 20 2005, 05:13 PM
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 nFm [ Level 1 ]  Group: Full Member Posts: 239 Joined: 20-October 05 From: Springdale, ARKANSAS Member No.: 182  |
Sometimes it's hard to jump into a place and discuss your deepest thoughts, but there are some things I think about and I may as well put them down where I've been invited to.
I have been given a timeline for living. I'm sort of used to it now, although I still think of it every day. It took care of that old question "Would you want to know, or not want to know." I was already told. It changes so many things. Each day or week things get a little bit harder. You don't run out and get a boyfriend because it wouldn't be fair to drag someone else through this. You don't talk about it with those closest to you because it causes them pain. You just dance alone. And dancing alone sucks. Another saying: "Live each day as though it were your last." A good saying, but as the end nears you get tireder, things hurt more. You don't have the strength to be the good example to everyone. Why would you want to live like that? I hope someone will talk to me about this. --------------------  |
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| Ratrap |
Oct 22 2005, 03:33 PM
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nFm [ Level 2 ] Group: Global Moderator Posts: 395 Joined: 18-March 04 From: Germany Member No.: 21 |
My mother is living here with her new husband and takes care of me ... well 1hour a day for bringing me to bed.
Why? Well ... i want to put effort into something, to know that a part of my family didn't suffer ... But that's impossible i guess, since i can't offer something to a child, money, doing stuff with her like going out etc ... And i like girls, they are beasty but cute ... :P Too bad my time is running out ^^ Edit: My sister will get a baby with the age of 17 in march, and i know it will suffer because she is sick, and to know you can't do anything drives me crazy ... This post has been edited by Ratrap: Oct 22 2005, 03:44 PM --------------------  |
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Janie Philosophy- dying Oct 20 2005, 05:13 PM
Streetwise Been given a timeline for living? That must be tou... Oct 20 2005, 06:13 PM Ratrap I have spinal muscle atrophy. Since i was born i k... Oct 20 2005, 07:36 PM Janie Ratrap, you have people out here. And if not befor... Oct 20 2005, 10:45 PM Ratrap Many people try to tell me that, but reality looks... Oct 21 2005, 08:57 AM Streetwise Omg Ratrap, I had no idea. Well what can I say to ... Oct 21 2005, 09:11 AM Janie The sad part is the getting there. I've alread... Oct 21 2005, 09:41 AM Ratrap Ah why sadness? It's a shitty life, but it... Oct 21 2005, 01:14 PM Janie There ya go!
And, ya got a half way good sen... Oct 21 2005, 01:21 PM Streetwise
You mean literally You've been to the other s... Oct 21 2005, 02:17 PM Ratrap Is it just me or do women like to play with emotes... Oct 21 2005, 02:24 PM Janie Does that mean you guys want to "philosophize... Oct 21 2005, 03:43 PM Ratrap If you like to share your experience, go ahead.
W... Oct 21 2005, 05:38 PM Streetwise I seriously want to know what you saw. I was jokin... Oct 21 2005, 05:59 PM Janie I was in an ambulance going to the hospital, havin... Oct 21 2005, 06:24 PM Ratrap Sounds wonderful, all i see is NOTHING when my pai... Oct 21 2005, 07:12 PM Streetwise Wow....and yes did you have a daughter? Any kids w... Oct 21 2005, 07:47 PM Janie Ratrap...I was so angry with God when my daughter ... Oct 21 2005, 11:08 PM Ratrap Big family nice.
Do you see them often? Oct 22 2005, 11:26 AM Janie Not very often since I moved to Arkansas. Erin liv... Oct 22 2005, 11:58 AM Janie Does your sister have spinal muscle atrophy as wel... Oct 22 2005, 06:46 PM Ratrap Nah she is fine but a psycho, as said she went bas... Oct 22 2005, 07:06 PM Janie Sorry it took so long to respond Ratrap. Company s... Oct 22 2005, 10:55 PM Ratrap Well if i can't lift my arms i can't walk ... Oct 23 2005, 09:39 AM Janie Know what you mean about the meds. I take them 4 t... Oct 23 2005, 09:52 AM Janie OOps! This is my site: My Webpage
You may be ... Oct 23 2005, 09:56 AM Ratrap Wow, nice site!
Well i don't have contact... Oct 23 2005, 11:12 AM Janie I'm sorry about that Ratrap. I know it would m... Oct 23 2005, 11:36 AM Ratrap Yeah, thanks.
Well i will hope that she becomes m... Oct 23 2005, 12:31 PM Janie I got this in an e-mail today. You might think it... Oct 24 2005, 10:25 AM Ratrap :D first part made me angry but the last one is ni... Oct 24 2005, 04:39 PM Janie You mean I was partially successful? WooooHoooo... Oct 24 2005, 10:18 PM Ratrap Hey, at leas you can do steps :D Oct 25 2005, 09:53 AM Janie That's true. Hey...another person up at the cr... Oct 25 2005, 09:55 AM Ratrap Thanks, but if it's good ... sooo tired and he... Oct 25 2005, 12:24 PM Janie What do you do for yourself? I mean..how do you ma... Oct 25 2005, 12:29 PM Ratrap Not really hmm ... playing games is always the sam... Oct 25 2005, 01:48 PM Streetwise Isn't reading books an option? Oct 25 2005, 02:27 PM Ratrap Yeah, i have read David Eddings and Raymond E. Fei... Oct 25 2005, 07:59 PM Janie Never heard of them. What do they write? Oct 25 2005, 09:33 PM Ratrap David Eddings: About a boy finding his magical Pow... Oct 26 2005, 09:45 AM Janie 24 so far would certainly qualify as a long story... Oct 26 2005, 09:51 AM Ratrap Took a long nap and i am fine now. Maybe i will go... Oct 26 2005, 01:32 PM Janie Reminds me of something I wanted to ask you about.... Oct 26 2005, 01:43 PM Janie The Spoon Theory
The Spoon Theory
My best frien... Oct 26 2005, 02:27 PM Ratrap Well, yeah but if you think about how long my life... Oct 26 2005, 03:24 PM Ratrap Wow ... I've thought that no one could bring m... Oct 26 2005, 03:35 PM Janie That was good, wasn't it Ratrap? It can help o... Oct 26 2005, 03:47 PM Ratrap I will, thank you :) Oct 26 2005, 07:36 PM Janie I was really sad today. I don't tell to many p... Oct 27 2005, 03:46 PM Ratrap I would like to kick your friends ass. Just a few ... Oct 28 2005, 09:10 AM Janie I've asked my friend to be honest with me. It... Oct 28 2005, 11:16 AM Ratrap I wish my sleep times would increase, 23hours a da... Oct 28 2005, 12:12 PM Janie You're a goofball. I love that!! Oct 28 2005, 03:35 PM Janie Not doing very well at all. I'm waiting for th... Nov 1 2005, 04:33 PM Ratrap All i can do is hope for you :(
I am doing pretty... Nov 1 2005, 07:37 PM Deepone hope you two can manage it.. I'm healthy, or s... Nov 3 2005, 10:24 AM Janie Permission granted Deepone.
That was a good posti... Nov 3 2005, 12:36 PM Janie I went to the doctor's yesterday and the cardi... Nov 11 2005, 12:03 PM Ratrap Good luck with it, keep me informed! Nov 11 2005, 02:05 PM Janie You betcha, friend. And so far today this no sleep... Nov 11 2005, 03:44 PM
Deepone that's good to hear :) hope it has continued t... Nov 17 2005, 11:24 AM |
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